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November 9, 1012 7:24pm

Alrighty then, rough afternoon today.  The drive home, although she really enjoyed being outside for the first time in 3 days, really worked her over.  She is currently sleeping, but had a really hard time with the pain and getting comfortable enough to actually fall asleep.  I think we got her settled in with the meds and like I said she is sleeping right now.

She does keep waking up in a start every 15 - 20 minutes and asking for me or her mom or whatever because the drug makes her really disoriented and weird.  The poor girl makes such a terrible druggie.  We are actually giving her half of the smallest available dose of the painkiller she is taking...we have to cut the pill in half.  She is a lightweight.  She nurses were kinda poking fun at her for that this afternoon...made us smile.  

She is experiencing that of narcotics which is the negative part...they do a great job of killing pain, but they also weird your brain out and cause her imagination to go a little overboard.  She is sleeping but feels like she never actually falls asleep because the painkiller gets her brain running...its really weird.  

The drive home this afternoon was really rough for her like I mentioned. It really shocked her body.  Rough day folks, rough day.

The docs did all poke in today and check her, and my sister who is an RN in Fort Collins also stopped over tonight to help us out and every one of those people said that the wounds look great, that she is healing really nicely.  Thats really encouraging and we are just going to take it day by day, sometimes hour by hour and in the really rough patches we will take the minutes as victories. Some of this is just hard because the girl never  puts stuff like this in her body (drugs, narcotics, antibiotics etc) so she is just having a hard time with that by itself.  I did point out that having a few narcotics and some antibiotics in her body was better than feeling the pain of an infected double mastectomy...she agreed.

Please keep checking in, please keep loving on her and praying for us.  I'm exhausted, neither of us has gotten more than 3-4 hours of actual quality sleep since Tuesday, so we are running thin here. I'm a little nervous about doing this all myself...I'm a handyman and a worship leader, not a nurse.  There is a reason for that.  We have great support, my sister is a nurse, we have several close friends who are nurses, and I know I can do this...Damnit, I can DO this!!!

Little quick win-one-for-the-Gipper for myself there...thanks for the indulgence.

Who is the Gipper anyway?

Ok, I'm going to sign off here and try to get us settled in to bed.

Thanks folks, we really appreciate the support.  If there is anything that you want her to know soon, then send it to me on email or text.  She hasn't looked at her phone in days and its hard for her to concentrate on that stuff...it would be easier if you send it to me and I can read it to her in those times when she's awake and feeling good.

Much love,

J